what we want this christmas..

Lengski:

1. Canon 40d

2. Sony Bravia or Samsung 42inc LCD

3. Imac G5 or super astig PC (CPU) "yung 42inch LCD ang monitor ko..heheh

4. Comfortable Sofa Bed

5. two bedroom condo unit

Nala:

1. Maging masaya lagi at safe si Lengski

2. Lagi kong makasama si Lengski
3. Magkasundo na sila Koolit at Mr. M

4. Maging vegetarian na lahat ng tao sa buong mundo.

5. Makita ko si Pulgoso sa personal.... hayyyyyy!!!

Koolit:

1. Maging pinakamagaling na fairy sa buong Lengskididoodleslandia

2. Ma-master ko na lahat ng magic spells

3. Maging super model

4. Maging hollywood actor at makasama sa pelikula si Scarlett Johanson

5. Magkaroon ng Pet cat para di na makalapit si Mr. M sa akin

Mr. M.

1. Maging susunod na 007 ..(tananan.. tananan...)

2. Pumalit kay Ryan Seacrest

3. Dagdagan ni Lengski ang role ko

4. Masilid sa kahon si Koolit

5. Magka-girlfriend na katulad ni Betty Boop

Wish naming lahat:

NALA FOREVER! sana maging sikat na comics kmi sa buong mundo!!!

at WORLD PEACE!!!

as i saw him there...

i saw him.. i was there... i could barely look for i know that there's not much that i can do.. but pray that he'll finally be happy.. but i'm still thankful for he had experienced care... even if it was during the very last seconds of his life...







full story:

http://newsinfo.inquirer.net/breakingnews/metro/view_article.php?article_id=101678

Nala Episode 08

Nala Episode 07

abawt mi! (survey survey)

Would You Rather...((with some unusual questions..))
Would you rather...
Be 4'1 or 7'9"?:	4'1... yoko mas maging matangkad pa sa 'bebi' kew.. ^_^
Live without music or live without T.V.?:	without music.. couch potato ako pag ala pasok eh..hehe
Eat a bar of soap or drink a bottle of dishwashing liquid?:	dishwashing liquid pra ala na nguya-nguya at ma stuck sa ngipin
Be called a racist or a traitor to your country?:	traitor na lang.. ayoko matawag akong racist.. unfair masyado sa iba
Lose your legs or lose your arms?:	legs na lang.. di ko ma imagine na di na ko makaka-drawing :(
Have a beautiful house and ugly car or an ugly house and beautiful car?:	house!! dream come true yan! tsaka oki na sa kin khit lumang kotse, basta di sirain
Be blind or deaf?:	deaf na lang.. marami pa kong gustong makita sa mundo..
Live in Antarctica or Death Valley?:	antartica.. ayoko ng mainit.. mukhang mainit sa death valley.. hehe
In a fire, save a sibling or a stranger?:	sibling.. syempre.. kapatid ko yun eh.
Be spanked or be put on a restriction (on your favorite thing to do)?:	spanked na lang.. maglalaho din yun pasa nun sa katinko at vicks
Eat sushi or liver?:	liver! ayaw ko ng sushi.. hilaw na isda.. eeekkk!
Have 3 eyes or webbed feet?:	3 eyes na lang para anime.. hehe.. (basta ba nakatago sa bangs!)
Meet the president of the U.S. or Billy Graham?:	ah.. khit sino.. si bush na lang..
Find true love or 1 million dollars?:	true love syempre.. para na kong nanalo sa lotto nun.. basta happy!
Always have to say everything on your mind or never speak again?:	say everything.. di ka uunlad kung di ka nagsasalita.. at least nalaman nila himutok ko..
Be gossipped about or never talked about at all?:	tahimik na lang.. ayaw ko ng intriga.. di ako showbiz eh..
Have stars in your eyes or eyes in the back of your head?:	sa eyes na lang.. prang anime ulet.. hehe.. cute pah!
Have x-ray vision or bionic hearing?:	xray vision!! astig yun!!! har har har!
Be able to hear any conversation or take back anything you say?:	hear na lang.. at least alam ko na iniisip ng iba para mas cautious ako..
End hunger or hatred?:	hunger! hirap yata ng feeling ng gutom! tska para di na ko tumaba! hahaha!
Publish your diary or make a movie on your most embarrassing moment?:	diary na lang.. ala nman sila mababasa eh.. hihihi
Get caught singing in the mirror or spying on your crush?:	singing in the mirror.. i think my 'k' naman ako, khit konti.. hihihi
Be a dog named Killer or a cat named Fluffy?:	killer! i love dogs, ya know! kaya dog, khit katakot yung name!
Be stranded on an island alone or with someone you hate?:	with someone na lang.. pra may sisihin ako na iba.. hahahah!
Get even or get over it?:	get over it..get even.. hmmmm.... hirap ah.. get over it na lang pra tapos na...
Always lose or never play?:	always lose.. para matuto din ako at ma experience ko.. lungkot nga lang.. hay..
Be forced to tell your best friend a lie or tell your parents the truth?:	parents the truth.. ala naman ako bestfriend..heheh
Know it all or have it all?:	have it all, cause when you have it all, you'll know it all.. (i think.. ) hehe
Always get first dibs or the last laugh?:	last laugh.. masarap ata tumawa ng malakas.. yun halos umiyak ka na.
Give bad advice or take bad advice?:	take na lng. at least may choice ako na di yun sundin.
Have sand in your shorts or water in your ear?:	sand. mas madali maalis. ala k pa feeling n parang may bumubulong sa yo lagi.
Forget your sunscreen or your sunglasses?:	sunglasses. lagi naman. wag ang sunscreen pra di ako masunog.
Kiss a jellyfish or step on a crab?:	buhay? pag patay yun crab na lang. ^_^
Own a ski lodge or a surf camp?:	ski lodge. sosyal yun ski eh. hihihi
Forget who you were or who everyone else was?:	everyone.. di ko na maiisip yun kc di ko n nga sila maalala. ^_^
Have one wish granted today or three wishes granted in 10 years?:	3 wishes.. mabilis naman ang oras..
Give up your computer or your pet?:	my computer. di ko ma give up bestfriend ko.
Be the sand castle or the wave?:	the wave! may fear ako sa alon kaya dapat maging alon ako para di na ko matakot
Overthrow a dictatorship or lead one?:	overthrow yang mga nangunguha ng tax namin! tpos ang higpit pa.. hay!
Write the worst book in history or record the worst song in history?:	record. di naman masyado napapansin yun composer minsan, mas yung kumanta.. hehe
Get free chocolate for one year or free potatoes forever?:	chocolate syempre.. deal ako jan!
Have half days everyday or no homework forever?:	no homework. kya nga home para sanctuary sa lhat outside
Wear all pink or all purple to school?:	all pink pra girl!
Take a math test or do a lab in science?:	science lab.. yoko ng math.. hihi
Have a mansion in the middle of nowhere or an apartment with 10 friends?:	mansion.. yoko ng 'bigbrother' idea
Be a deep sea diver or an astronaut?:	astronaut!! dreams of all dreams!
Bake cookies in cooking class or do art projects in art class?:	pareho! pde ba? pareho ko gusto yun eh.. sowweeee
Run the mile or give a speech for English?:	takbo na lang.. exercise pa.
Have a pie-eating contest or a wheelbarrow race?:	wheel.. madali ako ma umay eh..
Have a big group of friends or one very close friend?:	one close friend.. basta loyal and true. solve na ko dun
Not be able to talk or hear for one day?:	talk na lang. feeling 'ariel' na lang ko (from little mermaid) lala-lala!
Be nervous but excited or relaxed but bored?:	nervous.. maganda rin yun paminsan-minsan
Wear a school uniform or last year's Halloween costume?:	uniform! astig kaya uniform namin nung college.. yung brown ha?
Spend the day surfing the internet or the ocean?:	ocean.. para matuto na kong lumangoy at maalis na takot ko sa alon
Be an actress/actor in a big movie or the director?:	director! mas gusto ko yung inuutusan ko yun mga artista.. harhar! kidding.. director.. dream ko din yun.
Have an ugly, loyal dog or a prize-winning, snobby cat?:	ugly loyal dog. no need to ask. dog dog dog
Be a professional baseball player or a champion horse breeder?:	baseball.. champion nanay ko sa softball nun highschool eh.. gayahin ko sya
Be saved by Superman or meet Winnie the Pooh?:	superman! gusto ko lumipad.. hihihi.. tska astig yun!
Go to an amusement park or to a family reunion?:	family reunion.. dami handa eh.. tska parlor games.. masaya yun!
Have a kangaroo or koala as your pet?:	koala.. masuntok pa ko nung kangaroo..yoko nga.
Be rich with an unhappy job or make less money with a job you like?:	rich na lang.. pra mag quit ako ng job.. di ko na problema pera.. tpos tyo ko gusto ko business.. hehe
Not be able to use your phone or your e-mail?:	email.. kelangan ko lagi mag text eh.. lam nyo na..
Snowboard in the winter or swim in the summer?:	snowboard.. di ko pa nararanasan yun eh.
Pick your own nose or someone else's?:	akin na lang.. kadiri yun sa iba.. eeekkk!!
Be a tree or live in a tree?:	live in a tree.. maganda rin naman yun may tree house.. presko na at maaliwalas.. tska pag tree, di na ko tao nun..
Write a mystery or a poem?:	mystery.. pra may book 2 and so on.. mas madami books means more popular, more cash, more readers.. practical!
Meet an alien visitor or travel to outer space?:	travel sa outer space syempre.. astig.. just make sure na makabalik ako.. yaw ko ma-stuck dun.
Be forgotten or hatefully remembered?:	hatefully remembered.. at least may nakaalala... hihihi
Last but not least...
Would you rather be doing this quiz or doing something else? =P:	doing this.. ala na ko iba ginagawa eh.. heheh
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To see, or not to see… (Beings of the unseen)

"Is it true?" is always the first question we ask. "Have you seen one?" then this follows.

There are many stories about them. Some passed through generations and some are newly created. Out of illusion. Others, out of reality.

Actually, it is not about the realness of this spirit we are curious about. It is about being one. What do they feel, what they are up to, how did they become one, what will happen next? It is all about the unknown we are facing, the "after life in the spirit world" as we call it.

According to people, the experience of seeing "something" brings a very strong sensation. Hairs rise like what those in cartoons and you just go blank afterwards.

Humans, by nature, fear the unknown because they are afraid of what they might discover. But they are so eager to learn because they are born curious. Still, their instinct of survival overcomes the fear. Some of us shut their eyes whenever we feel we are in the situation of finally seeing a ghost but still peek to see how they look like.

What would you do when suddenly a headless man passes in front of you while you’re watching TV? Will you scream, run, freeze or yell at him to go away because he’s getting in your view? Hah, whatever it is you would do, you’ll never know until you are in that situation. It will depend whether you have already experienced one.

Regardless of others experiences, would you really want to see one? For what reason? To tell others you had experienced it? Or to know what they are up to?

I think the latter must be the reason. After all, nothing exists for nothing. And learning something from them is not a bad purpose too. I’m thinking of asking about their past. What really did occur then and what are the consequences that resulted from those events. With that, I might able to do something in the future. Maybe not that of a big change, but still and hopefully, I can do at least a little change.

One more thing, like one of my questions before, I want to find out why they are here and for some reason, why does God created them in the first place. I know that there’s a fact that all of us here in the world are "ghosts" in our own ways because according to many, we all have souls. The only thing we are different from them is that we have this physical body. We are ghosts because we are still searching for answers for our tons of questions. (Gee, like what ghost stories usually narrate). Why, why, why. Maybe the answers will all depend on what they did. For all our actions will bring about a certain result. A circumstance created by the choices we made. Maybe they also serve as "reminders" to all of us who are still living, that it is all life’s consequences: that they are the naked examples of our conscience.

But no matter what is the justification of their existence, whether they are real or not, they are not here to harm us. We may get afraid of them for they are kind of "different", but one thing I am certain. That the real ghosts who can really hurt us are the ones we created ourselves.

Ghost, n. the soul of a dead person, a disembodied spirit imagined as wandering among or haunting living persons. Now its up to you to believe or not.

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happy halloween to all... ^_^

halowin komiks

story by Normandy dela Paz
art by Rui and Lengski
A writer asked us to create a comic for the Holloween Supplement which was supposed to be published in a newspaper way back 2004. Unfortunately, there was no space spared for this piece, so this was not released and got stuck inside my office pc. Anyway, I recently browsed my drive d and saw this one.. so i decided to post it here, at least for it to be read 'finally' by public. ^_^geez.. holloween is coming.. maybe this comic really called out to me to be released by then...

Nala Episode 06

-=a doggie tribute=-

How Could You?
By Jim Willis, 2001

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.
Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at meand ask "How could you?"-- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a bellyrub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy but we worked on that together.
I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams and I believed that life could not be any more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs" you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.
Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love.
She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy.
Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."
As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I would've defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway.
There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.
Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartmentthat does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family. I was excited about the carride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness.
You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed, "No, Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too.
After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?" They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow.
They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you, that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream... or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far corner and waited.
I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end ofthe day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room. A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days.
As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and Iknow that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my fore leg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same wayI used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?"
Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said"I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I went to a better place,where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place.
And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her. It was directed at you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of you and wait for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty... like how I did to you...Till then.

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this really made me cry everytime i read it... (hikbi.. hikbi...) made me love all my doggies more...

(the illustrations above are all original creations/characters and the illustration dog's heart was published in Philippine Daily Inquirer's Chinese New Year Supplements)

buletin bord

as of 10.22.07

nala episode 04

nala episode 05

i want this! (digital SLR)

I'm really hoping for the appliance fair to be held soon cause I'm really really excited to have a digital SLR.

Of course, I still cherish my EOS 80 and will be forever grateful for all of our 'experiences' together.. (hey, it gave me 1.5 thesis grade and a whopping 1 for a special project during college ^_^ ) but to be able to cope up with the 'trend' here in the office, I must have a digital SLR.

Hmmm... catching everyday scenes, amazing views during my travels, simply freezing the memories of time that I happened to pass through... What more could I ask for? I love photography. If I'll be given a chance to choose a career, I will definitely run and breath this path! (Of course, together with 'nala' and 'doodles' as my inspiration tools..) ^_^

Problem is... this nikon d3 is worth $5000!!! (unfortunately, I don't have that much.. heheh) but I'm planning to buy canon 400d instead.

And when the world already knows that there's a 'GREAT' (naks!) photographer named 'lengski' that's just hiding and existing somewhere behind nala's tail, I'll definitely be able to buy the d3 without even noticing that my pocket was busted... (am i making sense?? oh well.. pagbigyan nyo na... I'm just too happy to think of the sentence construction right now.. heheh)

Nala Episode 05

Nala Episode 04

Nala Episode 03

Nala Episode 02

Nala Episode 01

My first comic strip - Nala Episode 01

Thinner is better?

Whenever I go to the mall, I can't help but stare on the widescreen LCD tvs that are on display in appliance stores. I'm particularly interested with the Bravia units offered by Sony. Every time I see those big, super fine, high definition, LCD units, I suddenly see myself daydreaming of what It's like to have it at home and just consume my day off watching my favorite shows and anime dvds.

Well, the dilemma is, they are pretty expensive. I still can't afford it at the moment but I still see myself purchasing a 50inch model in the near future, filling up my own satisfaction.

Or is it worth it?

Here are some of my worries. Will cable companies provide a High Definition feeds by the time I purchase the unit? Where will I put it? (Cause I may not have a bigger space and still be living in a 20 square meter studio unit.) Or worse, what if by then, a better model will be introduced right after I bought the Bravia?

A possibility, especially that thing about a new product.

Why is it so? Because Sony has promised to introduce OLED TV this year (though Samsung doubted it).

What is OLED TV?

Here are some information from the different sites I visited through Google.

Basically means as "Organic Light Emitting Diode TV".

OLEDs are a flat display technology, made by placing a series of organic thin films between two conductors. When electrical current is applied, a bright light is emitted.

Because OLEDs produce (emit) light they do not require a backlight. This means that OLEDs can be made very thin and very power efficient when compared to LCD (Which do require a white backlight), and also it might be possible to create efficient white lighting from OLEDs.

So what does it means?

OLED's advantages are having a more "exciting displays" (ultra-thin, flexible even transparent displays), low power consumption (which make it more environmental friendly), greater brightness, better durability and lighter weight.

Very promising eh? Imagine an acetate functioning as a screen. It's like one step to the matrix technology. Today, we can find small organic displays in many types of devices like cell phones, A/V players, car audio systems, digital cameras and PDAs. Currently, building a large sized OLED display is hard and it will take some time before companies are able to do it economically. Though Sony has already launched their prototypes of larger OLED screens in Japan and claimed to make an 11inch unit available in the market by the end of 2007, Samsung contradict it and stated that it does not believed that Sony will be able to deliver its promise by then.

But whether it will be available or not, I can say that it is still with the consumer's satisfaction that will weigh the pith of this invention. A consumer like me whose only desire is to make the most of the purchase I spent with the product.

A man’s quest for fatherhood

I know he will be surprised to read this. He has often asked me if he was a good father. And every time, I pause and become uncertain of the answer. Not that I’m a woman, single and do not have children yet.

He is a father of two. His daughter turned six last week, while his son will turn five next month. He got married at 24, and was separated from his wife four years later. The marriage was far from perfect, and their differences made them decide to seek separate fates. After the separation, he seldom saw his children. In fact, the last time he was able to visit his children was almost two years ago.

It’s painful for a father not to see his children, send them to school, hear their voices, play with them and tuck them in bed. Each day that passes is filled with emptiness with no end.

He then realized that he should search inwards if he ever hoped to be reunited with his kids again. Money was one of the main reasons for the separation, and so he found a job. He worked hard, grabbed every opportunity that came his way. Failure shadowed him constantly, but he would not stop.

At work, he used his painful experiences as motivation. For him, the hardest part of life had already happened. It was time to live a new life.

Before long, he became a team leader at the workplace. He earned the trust and confidence of his superiors, and the respect of his peers. His colleagues are aware of his painful past, and they are only too happy for what this man has become.

He has managed to turn his life around almost completely. Yet, there is still that one important part missing to make the circle complete: His children. Soon, he will reveal himself to them, show them what he has become, and for whom he has done all these changes for. Soon, he vows, he will finally make them feel the love and care he has kept in his heart all these years.

So now, whenever he asks me if he was a good father, all I can answer is for him to look at himself. I believe fatherhood is not just the time a father spends with his children, or the things he is able to give them. It’s also about what a man has become to be a father to his children.

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This article was published in Philippine Daily Inquirer for Father's Day Supplement on June 17, 2007

what i think about yuri

Yuri is very friendly, warm, funny at times and very loving. He's also very cute and cuddly. I like his big round eyes, his cute little pink tongue and his little nose that always sniffs. I like every inch of him. Not just because he's my dog. Not just because he's my companion. It's because he is my bestfriend.

But I am not Yuri's only bestfriend. Hope its only in my thoughts that Yuri might not be that loyal to me because there are some things that I can't give him that other people can. I just hope I'm wrong about this.

I'd been around dogs for as long as I can remember. Maybe I'm just three of four years old when I first had my puppy to take care of. Ever since, I never lived without a dog beside me. So I can say that I know how to properly raise them based on all the experiences I had.

But why do I doubt myself right now regarding caring for Yuri?

Because this is the first time that I'm sharing my bestfriend with someone else. And honestly, I'm not that at ease with the situation. For oftentimes, there are contradictions between how I take care Yuri with how others treat him. Right now, I can already see the results in Yuri's behavior.

Before, Yuri can still differentiate a stranger from those who are not. Though Yuri is sociable by nature, he used to have this instinct to be careful. But now, he will wag his tail to anyone he met and just give his trust right away. This makes me really worried especially when I heard about the "dognapping" incidents that taken place to almost everywhere. Where toy dogs like Yuri are often the target for abduction. An officemate too once said that Yuri is "dognapabble" cause he is really kind, which made me a lot worried for his safety.

Second is, Yuri used to love food so much. The sound of ripping plastics are already delicious to him. He can consume a big bag of "Holistic Recipe" dog food in less than a month. Even found vitamins a yummy dessert. But now, he will just eat what he wants. And what he wanted is just "canned dog food". For me to compare it with "Holistic", it's less nutritious and even more expensive. Plus, the fact that it is "canned" which makes it more unhealthy for him. We still have to pretend that we're eating his food or he will not taste it at all.

I noticed too that Yuri would just do whatever he wanted to do. Yes, he's playful, very active and fun. But it’s different from being a "disciplined active dog". Now, he never listens. Everything is play for him. Which, in reality, makes him vulnerable to the outside world. Made him not a survivor and not be able to fully develop his instincts to differentiate dangerous things from the one he can actually play.

Yuri is a good dog. Actually, a very very good dog. One of the best bestfriends I've ever had. But it doesn't mean that he can learn things by himself. To know what is good and what is bad for him. Actually, he is very lucky to have so many people that loves him. And I really really appreciate it and I'm also very thankful. But it is still our responsibility to mold him the right way and not for the way where we can see immediate result or answers to his immediate needs. We need to prepare him too for his long journey and old age.

We want Yuri to be with us for as long as we want. Life is not just a happy time. Same with a dog's life. Please help me make him realize what life is about.

Together, let's make him an independent, strong and a "survivor Yuri". With all his already qualities, Yuri will surely be one of the greatest bestfriend ever, if not the greatest dog in the world.

For when that happened, I can say that he lived his doggy life as how it should be. And we're lucky enough to have him spend it with us.

Revenge

Revenge? Good or bad? Most of the people will say its bad. I think even Mr. Webster will say it is. But for me, I think it depends. Depending on the reason why you want to have it.

Oftentimes, we felt to resort to revenge because we can’t achieve justice. Its not simply to feel good that the person involve will have his lesson for the harm that he had caused. I believe that revenge will be his eye opener. Yes, it will be a lesson learned. Not to cause pain. For a person to realize the consequence of his actions.

Will I practice revenge? I think so. But neither for my own satisfaction nor making myself feels at peace or for that person to suffer. I’ll dedicate revenge for all the people who have gone through the distress caused by this unfortunate "craziness". So that the person behind this torment will realized that there is this one person who is not afraid for his violated rights to finally be heard and be stated.

It’s just simple justice.

what i do everyday

movies.
i call myself as the "movie editor". my officemates know why.

coffee.
i drink it whenever i feel sleepy, hungry and bored. (basically when i have nothing to do...)

forums.
when i need someone not serious to talk to.

manga.
when i want to laugh and feed my imagination.

illustration.
whenever im in the mood. it's hard for me to draw something when i have no inspiration.

photography.
oh, how i hope i can do this everyday. so, i just plan ahead on shooting my subjects.

cook.
to manage my budget and escape from the sin of fastfoods eating.

other work.
yep, doing someone's work. (this one i really hate)

chatting.
to keep my communication with my very important one.

net surfing.
just to feel away from my cubicle.

blogging.
when i need to release my frustrations, excitement or anything else.

sleeping.
just to escape from everything.

The hardest first step

Planning. I'd been really interested in planning. Like when I was still in college and was assigned to be the project leader of conceptualizing a marketing campaign for a product that caters with the senior market. And we got a very good grade after the presentation for that AdPrac group project. That time, I felt really proud. Once again, I have proven not only to my professor and classmates but especially to myself that I can be an effective leader.

And that was a few years back.

Now, I'm planning again. Not for a marketing campaign, not for an AdPrac project, not even for brand collaterals. Right now, I am planning for myself. Yes, you read it right. Cause unlike before, currently, I'm not sure where’s my career path is really going to.

To give you an idea, I have a stable job. Earning compensation that is more than enough to sustain the rent, other monthly bills, fine dining, weekend movies and a big investment. I am currently employed in one of the top companies here. If you're going to look at it, there's nothing I could really ask for more. That is, if you are going to just look on the practical side.

But why am I still not that at ease with my current situation?

Good question.

Here's the reason why. Because I have forgotten that I am a planner. To be honest, that planner has always been inside of me. That drive to create campaigns, that eagerness to make effective catch lines, those brainstormings and brilliant ideas, that person who was once a leader. It never leaves me. It just happened that I don't have opportunities right now. Enough ways to show this side of me. Enough chance to prove my worth.

Or do I just limit myself? Maybe... But why?

Thinking about it, I realized that if that chance will not be given to me, I think I better find it myself. If those opportunities are really difficult for me to have, I will make my own opportunity. And this search should start right now.

This will be my gameplan. For my goals. For my life. A search for my forgotten self.

This blog will start the blueprint of my plans. The planner will be revived. Goals will be realized soon.

And it will all begin with the hardest first step.

It is, collecting my old self.

pasahero sa dyipni

For my second entry, I found this "bloggie" when i dig my "kalat sa desktop". I wrote this one a few years back.

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August 15, 2003

As usual, tuwing tanghali, nakasakay na naman ako ng jeep para pumasok sa trabaho. Lagi akong nagbibigay ng 2-hour allowance kasi apat na byahe ako bago makrating dun. Sa may Pritil, pinalad na naman akong makasakay dun sa mga jeep na di pumipila. Kasi inaabot ako ng siyam-siyam pag dun sa may tapat ng Puregold ako sumakay. Napansin ko sa may jeep na may dalawang babae na sobra lakas magkwentuhan. Nagkataon na sa tapat pa nila ako umupo, yung malapit sa may dulong babaan. Naintriga ako sa pinaguusapan nila kaya tahimik ko silang pinakinggan.

"Alam mo, kahit anong gawin mo, kasalanan pa rin yon. Madulas ka na sa kung madulas pero sigurado na mainit ka na rin sa pulis" sabi nun isang mas nakatatandang babae na ipagpalagay na nating Loring ang pangalan. "Pero maliit lang naman yun ginawa ko" pagtatangol nun kasama niya na tinawag ko na lang sa pangalang Minda.

Medyo nagsimulang lumakas yung usapan nila kaya yung ibang pasahero na kasakay namin e napatingin na rin. Kaya lang nun pinagmasdan ko ulit sina Loring at Minda, wala silang pakialam at patuloy na nag-usap.

May kinalalaman sa droga yung pinaguusapan nila. Di malinaw sa akin pro alam kong medyo kumplikado yung sitwasyon. Pero sa paraaan ng kanilang pag-uusap, parang ang mga bagay na ito ay pangkaraniwan na lang sa kanila at talagang inaasahang mangyari. Ganun daw talaga. Madaling pagkakitaan ang bawal lalo na kung hirap ka sa buhay. Madaling alternatibo sa pagkita ang mga bagay na di naayon sa batas. Ano ba naman daw ang kaso sa paggawa nun e marami naman daw ganun na tao. Di daw sila nag-iisa at sumasabay daw lang sila sa agos. Para bang nakikiuso.

"Malulusutan din ang lahat. Di ka na ba nasanay?" dagdag ni Aling Loring. "May mga bagay na nagagawa na sa panahon ngayon kahit na isipin mo na di ito nararapat." Ang tangi na lang daw nila magagawa ay wag mapatalo at makipagsabayan sa nagagawa ng iba upang di mag mukhang lalong kawawa.

Sa aking pakikinig, nalaman ko na hindi pala naniniwala si Aling Loring sa balita, lalo na sa mga dyaryo. Sabi nya, nababayaran daw ang mga reporter para di lumabas yun mga anomalya ng isang kilalang tao. Sinabi nya yun matapos nyang pagtawanan si Aling Minda nun sabuhin nyang bilib siya kay GMA. Napanood daw kasi ni Aling Minda sa TV na mabait daw si GMA kya iboboto nya ito kung tumakbo man ulit. Pingatawanan ni Aling Loring na manloloko lang ang media sa pamamgitan ng pagbibigay ng mga halimbawa.

Kilala daw niya yung isang kilalang druglord na isinapelikula na ang buhay. Totoo nga daw drug lord yon at totoong mayaman at maimpluwensya. Pero nun pinanood na niya yun pelikula, nagmukha pa daw itong isang hero sa kabila ng malaking pagkakasala at paglabag sa batas. "Hindi ba’t isang tuwirang pagsisinungaling yon?" ang malakas pa niyang pagkakasabi.

May isa pa daw. Yung isang congressman na dati e namimili ng boto. Bawat sobre na binigay nya kung saan nakasulat yung pangalan nito ay may kalakip na limangdaang piso. Syempre nga naman daw, sa isang taong gutom, tatanggapin yon. Limangdaan, wala kang mapupulot sa kalye na ganun kahit maghapon kang yumuko sa bawat kalyeng dadaanan mo sa buong Maynila.

Mas maniwala pa daw siya dun sa mga nagra-rally na pinangakuan nang matitirhan ng isang kandidato at binawi rin nung ito na ang umupo sa pwesto. Isa daw kasi siya dun sa libo-libonng naloko nung sinungaling na yon.

Bilib na bilib namang nakikinig sa sinasabi niya si Aling Minda. Nag advise pa nga ito sa kanya na ang tanging balita na pinapanood nya ay yun MGB. Tska yun daw kay Arnold… di pa nga siya sigurado kung tama yung pangalan na sinabi nya e. Basta yun daw yung palabas kung saan may mga taong kumakain ng alupihan.

Kaya daw nyang gawin yon. Basta kahit na anong pagkakakitaan. Yun naman daw ang dahilan kung bakit siya nabubuhay, ang kumita at magkaroon ng kahit konti na mapapakain sa sarili nya. Kaya nga daw di siya nagpamilya. Dahil ayaw nyang maranasan nila ang hirap na nararanasan nya ngayon.

Bigla na silang pumara nun asa may Abad Santos na sila. Napagsabihan pa niya si Aling Minda na daldal ito ng daldal kaya muntik na silang lumampas. Kaya iyon, nagmamdaling binitbit yung baso nilang plastik na may lamang yelo at pilit na sinimot yung konting tubig na natunaw mula don. Nauhaw siguro.

Sa pagbyahe ko nun tanghaling yun, may mga bagay akong natutunan. Ngayon ko napatunayan na lahat talaga tayo ay konektado sa isat’ isa at sa bawat bagay na ginagawa natin ay may kaakibat na epekto sa lahat, kahit dun sa di mo pinapansin at nakakasabay mo lang sa dyip. Yun mga taong pareho mo ang nararamdaman sa tuwing natratrapik ka at binubugahan ng usok ng mga dyip na nauunang umarangkada. Salamat dun sa dalawang naunang pumara na sayang nga lang at di ko na nakilala.

Gone Fishing

As my first blog entry, I decided to post this first article of mine. Yep, im proud of it. heheh...

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You need not spend thousands of pesos just to have fun this summer. Just prepare your own kawil (fishing rod) and ride a fisherman’s boat. The rest will be an exciting escape and an eye-opener, guaranteed.

Everything started with that ride on the jeep—not inside but on top of it beside townsfolk with their bayong, sack of rice, or chicken in hand. You forget to mind the heat of the noontime sun. You even forget that it’s been an hour since the ride started from Poblacion, Nasugbu, to Calayo (one of the 42 barangays that make up Nasugbu town in Batangas).

There is only one jeepney making that single trip from Calayo early in the morning to Poblacion in Nasugbu. Miss this one, and your next trip will literally arrive the next day.

The jeepney arrives in Poblacion just before noontime. The passengers then buy their necessities at the Nasugbu Public Market. By 12, the passengers go back to the jeepney and start the ride back to Calayo. This time, the jeepney carried a few more passengers than when it left Calayo this morning.

As the jeep rumbled along the rough road, we constantly checked if our seats were as secure as our luggage. Despite a rough ride, the view from atop the jeepney had given us a great view of the barrios and natural wonders along the way. Upon arrival at Calayo (literally translated as "very far"), we looked forward to our next adventure: lunch "extraordinaire" of adobo and sardinas at Mang Ambrosio Sevilla’s home. Mang Busyo, fisherman and a long-time resident of Calayo, would be our tour guide, bodyguard and barkada for that day.

Perfect spot
After lunch, we rode on Mang Busyo’s banca and headed for that perfect fishing spot on a shoreline inaccessible by land. There, we built a tent made of tree branches and sack blankets, while some already cast their line into the water. Mang Busyo started a fire and prepared taktakin, steaming hot shellfish soup, while showing us how and where to fish. He said patience is required to catch fish, and one shouldn’t expect what kind of fish to catch, if any would be caught at all. What’s important is the effort.

We started by placing our bait on the kawil’s hook, then cast it to the water. He reminded us to keep the kawil as steady as possible so as not to startle the fish. In our first attempt at fishing, we were "lucky" enough to catch botete, a non-edible blow fish, after 20 minutes of patience and "expecting nothing".

By sunset, though, we had caught a number of fishes good enough for our supper. And we capped our day with an enjoyable swim in the cool, kind waters of the South China Sea. Dinner was served, featuring all our good catch grilled to perfection.

As the bonfire smoldered into the night, we looked forward to the next day’s round of fishing, and dreamed of another big catch in the morning. Another big catch before calling it a day and riding again on Mang Busyo’s boat headed for home this time.

Back on top of that lone jeepney bobbing up and down on dirt roads on our way back from Calayo to Poblacion, a realization likewise bobbed up and down in my mind. Life is like fishing. It takes patience to have a good catch. Things cannot be rushed, and we should wait for the right time to pull out that one string of opportunity that crosses our path, in a journey of life that’s as vast as the ocean.

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This article was published on Philippine Daily Inquirer's Summer Supplement Issue